For the first time in my life, I feel like I am in the right place at the right time. Something good is about to happen. It may not be news-worthy to the world but it will affect me immensely. I feel it. I feel it like the Earth feels the tidal pull. I feel it like the horizon feels the sun rise being birthed from its shores. I feel it like the night sky feels the first star burning its light into the blackness. It’s there…..and I can almost reach out and touch it. I just don’t know what it is.
Many things have happened to me throughout my lifetime. Some of those things have been wonderful and some have been stored in the vault of memories titled ‘lessons’. The culmination of all of those events has brought me to where I am now. Because of those situations, I have gained confidence where I used to wallow in self-doubt. I have achieved a level of comfort in who I am as a person. And I have grasped the definition of what I want in my life. It took me 46 years to get here but the journey was worth it. I have finally allowed myself to be the person who was hiding in my own shadow.
Sure, there are moments I fall back into the secluded darkness of that shadow but those moments are fleeting. Those junctures of time only serve to remind me of who I once was and who I have since become. I feed on the strength I have gained. I thrive on being the person I was meant to be and I hold fast to the lessons that each of those bumps has etched into the road that is my life.
There will always be moments that I shall forget the tenacity that has brought me to my now. There will forever be junctures in my life that I may lose sight of the higher roads that I have taken. But I can only take comfort in the fact that the skin I am cloaked in now fits me as it should. I can take solace in the conviction that I have learned from each lesson I was taught. And I can count on the feeling that I am where I need to be and that something good IS going to happen…..and it’s going to happen to me.