I wish I were certain. I can’t quite put my finger on it. I’ve only just shaken hands with you, shared pleasantries, but there is more to you. I feel a depth, like looking into a memory but I just can’t place you. There is a sudden feeling of kinship and camaraderie and I am immediately at ease. We fall into a conversation like we have been doing that very thing for years. I wish I were prepared for this.
We spend time together, we laugh like old friends and we share inside jokes. Your smile engages me. I am unable to pull my eyes from yours. I wish I were able to pinpoint the moment you crept into my heart – the moment that I saw you differently and couldn’t take my eyes off of you. I want to realize that moment and hold onto it for all eternity. My mind whirls with thoughts of where we could be now had we had these moments so many years ago.
My days are not consumed with thoughts of you but you insinuate yourself into random moments of my day and I can’t help but smile. There is an easiness about being around you. Your laughter is infectious to me. The twinkle in your eyes warms me. I am myself with you.
I wish I were able to quell this feeling. I wish I were able to push you to the recesses of my thoughts but you invade my reality. You stir my feelings and you haunt my desires.
How easy it would be to fall into your arms and feel safe there. How easy it would be to get lost in your eyes and float on the sound of your laughter. How easy it would be to want to never let you go.
How I wish I were able to include you in my forever.