A long and bumpy road


I haven’t been able to spend much time with my words for the last few days.  My mom went into the hospital on Thursday morning and I have been spending all of my days with her.  She is quite sick and we’re not sure where we go from here.

It’s a helpless feeling watching someone lie in a hospital bed, looking so frail, and knowing that I can do nothing but sit and keep her company.  I have done a bit of reading, but more than anything I watch her sleep.  In her current world of tubes and medications, she dreams a lot and talks in her sleep.  I lean forward and strain to hear what she is saying, but nothing she says is very intelligible.  I’d like to think that somewhere in the haze of her drug induced suspension of consciousness that my father is whispering in her ear from his place beyond our world and keeping her company as she sleeps.

Almost as much as I miss my writing, I miss reading all of your words.  Our family has a long and bumpy road ahead, but I hope I can find some time to distract myself from reality and lose myself in the happy land of WordPress.

I am on my way back to pass my day entombed by the drab walls of the hospital and listen to the beeps and hisses of the monitors.  My words still churn in my head, but now they form prayers for my mom.

18 thoughts on “A long and bumpy road

  1. I am so very sorry to hear that your mother isn’t doing well, and I can totally empathize with your hospital days. All of my time moved at warp speed in the years since i’ve turned 60 except….for the days I spent with my mother in her various stages of decline in her battle with Alzheimer’s disease. In the days she was in the hospital, time stood still. I wish you patience and love and competent caregivers today and in the days to come.

  2. Thoughts and prayers are with you Susan, as your words bring back the final days with my Mom, nearly 7 yrs ago. This may not be her time, but do remember this is a time to use your gift with words…she can hear you..tell her all you want to share, and if you can, in case this is her time, be sure to let her know that YOU are OK and that its ok to let go…blessings on you both…

  3. I’m sending you big hugs, my darling and hope your mother improves very quickly. Just make sure you take care of yourself, make sure you eat well and take some ‘time out’. Your mother is being cared for and is in the right place, we don’t want you getting sick. That would make me very sad 😦

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