The Daily Prompt has asked this question: Do parties and crowds fill you with energy, or send you scurrying for peace and quiet?
When I was younger crowds never bothered me. I went to concerts and enjoyed the combined energy that only a crowd could produce. But as I’ve gotten older, I have achieved an extreme level of distaste for feeling like a turtle caught in a school of fish.
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That mass of people who hurtle themselves in all directions seem to have no awareness of those around them and give me the sense that I have lost control of my own trajectory. Malls are especially unsettling for me and I avoid them like the plague, especially during the holidays. Although there is greater risk of credit cards being compromised with the advancement of hacker technology, I am happy to sit in the comfort of my own home and shop online for those gifts that cannot be purchased locally.
A small party with an intimate group of friends is bliss. I tend to relax and am able to be myself, allowing my goofy personality to take center stage and I feel more comfortable asserting my need to be the life of the party. That assertion becomes non-existent in large groups and I get a growing sense of discomfort feeling like that lost turtle again.
Give me a subdued night with good friends, good food and good wine any day. My life now is about developing those close relationships with people who matter to me. I don’t miss the feeling of being a pinball in an arena sized game and playing hide and seek with friends in a crowd of 20,000 people.