Has anyone seen my patience? I seem to have lost it.


I used to be a very patient person.  I was never fidgety while waiting in a line.  I knew my turn would come eventually and I was okay with that.

As the years have passed, I now understand where my mother was coming from when she used to say  “my patience is wearing thin”.  Perhaps it is somehow a right of passage that we are less apt to wait today than we may have been a couple of decades ago.  My patience these days resembles something like the onion-skin paper we used to trace pictures when we were in high school.

There are still moments when I am okay to wait, moments that are fleeting and that I know will pass relatively quickly.  But I am currently caught in a circumstance where I feel completely helpless and have no choice but to sit back and wait for information to come to me.  I feel horribly powerless and that is not a feeling I am accustomed to experiencing.

hurry up and wait

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It’s hard to let go.  It’s difficult to convince myself that things are going well at the other end when my imagination continues to conjure hundreds of possible scenarios.  And my lack of patience only fuels the fire of anxiety as I am forced to bide my time until I get some news.

Until then, I shall consume myself with projects to try to keep myself busy enough so I can quell the even more impatient creative writers in my head.  My own restlessness is hard enough to deal with….they will make this waiting period intolerable.



12 thoughts on “Has anyone seen my patience? I seem to have lost it.

  1. Wow, can I ever relate 😉 However, unlike you, I’m not sure I ever had any patience in the first place, but it does seem to be running thinner the older I get…..perhaps it’s because of the realization that time is limited and life is oh so short so I don’t want to waste precious minutes waiting!!

  2. I noticed my patience ebbs and flows, although it has increased as I have gotten older (unless it is stupidity I am dealing with, in which case the thread is bare).

  3. I really believe that my lesson in this life is to learn patience because mine is constantly being tested. It’s certainly wearing thinner as I age 😉

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