I knew today would be rough, another hurdle to overcome in a long list of firsts since losing my mom. I spent some fun time with family last night having some good laughs, which was great. After a fantastic dinner and jokes that only my family would appreciate, I got in the car to head home. A dear friend had sent me a text message letting me know she was thinking about me and how much of a difficult time I would have today and the first tear came with many to follow. I’m pretty sure what I experienced Oprah refers to as “the ugly cry”.
I vowed today would be better…and it was. I made a point of keeping myself occupied by working on the scrapbook and some decorations I am putting together for mom’s upcoming celebration of life. Sure, there have been a few random tears that have escaped during the afternoon but most of the day has been spent remembering her in a way she would want me to – with a smile and affection that has no boundaries.
These are some of the ways I have honored my mom today in her absence on this first mother’s day without her. I miss you every day.