Aging is a funny thing. When we are young, we think we have the world by the balls. We are confident to the point of being cocky. To some extent, we feel (or felt) like the world owed us something. But as we watched the calendar pages keep turning, we realized that life is merely leading us to the place where we were meant to be.
If I were to be honest, I would tell you that, deep down, I always knew I was meant to be the person I am today but somewhere along the path I took to get here, my direction was circumvented by my distorted illusion of reality. I let others opinions weigh far too heavily on the perception of who I thought I was and it altered my trajectory for a number of years. Those outside voices did more to define me than the voices I should have listened to that were coming from deep within myself. I always knew who I was, I just wasn’t confident enough to give her a chance.
Today is a different story. Perhaps is it different because I am two years away from being fifty. Maybe it is different because I have finally created a sense of self that is directly related to the person I see in the mirror. And conceivably, it is different because I have quelled those outside voices and listen only to the voice in my head. Regardless of how I got here, I have arrived at the place where I feel most comfortable being the person I know I was meant to be. I make no excuses, I apologize to nobody…..I am simply me.