I have had a small epiphany today. I call it small because to most it would be a normal occurrence but to me it was evidence of the changing of a tide within myself.
When it comes to life-changing events I have always faced them head on. I react without much thought, relying only on intuition. I don’t allow myself to wallow in the horrible circumstance, instead I am always looking for the next logical step. I give myself pause to reflect after the dust has settled but, during the crisis, I am continually thinking ahead and moving forward, never giving a second thought to the cause but always striving for the solution.
But when it comes to the finer, more minute details of life I tend to fester and over-think the little things. I replay the scene in my head over and over and, after a multitude of scenarios have been beaten into submission in my over-active imagination, I am eventually able to put the proverbial pencil to paper and draw the logical conclusion.
Until that moment of clarity, my mind is a churning mess. I analyse, over-analyse, recreate the scene in a way it never happened. I create dialogues in my head that never occurred and have myself convinced that this miniscule event has become epic in proportion to actual reality.
Personal growth is a journey taken one step at a time and today I took another step. It was a small thing in the grand scheme of my life but one that I normally would have allowed to gnaw on my subconscious until my brain hurt. Instead of allowing the situation to spiral out of control in my alternate reality, I diffused the ticking time bomb before the digital clock even began counting down the seconds. The drama was over before it began and I understood what it meant to take the high road.
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Perhaps wisdom does really come with age. Or perhaps I am just tired of spending so much time creating scenarios in my head that never existed in the first place. Regardless of the reason, I am glad I was able to teeter on the precipice of discomfort and take a step forward that was foreign to me. That one small step in my day was a giant step on the path of my life.