I am doing something I don’t usually do by copying and pasting a post I wrote back in February of this year. The words I wrote then have a hauntingly familiar refrain and I want to share them again because I think they should be read.
“It doesn’t take a lot of strength to hang on, it takes a lot of strength to let go.” ~ J.C. Watts
I was born a “fixer” and, until a few years ago, I had spent a great deal of my time taking on other people’s burdens as my own. But something shifted in the paradigm of my reality when I got divorced in 2012. I realized I was spending too much of my time trying to change a life that was not mine to change. I was hanging on to problems that irrevocably had impact on my life but I had no power to solve. I needed to let go. But I was so stuck in the pattern of my life that I didn’t know how to let go. I wanted so desperately for things to work out in my life that I honestly thought that this was the syllabus of my future.
It takes a monumental amount of courage to walk away from a relationship that you have put your heart and soul into, but a relationship has to give you what you need for it to be successful. By its very definition, a relationship is a form of communication. Wants and needs are expressed and, in a healthy relationship, are reciprocated without condition. Such was not the case for me and I knew it. I felt it deep within myself but it took me a long time to admit it because to do that would have made me feel like I had failed. But I had only failed myself by not seeing the signs sooner and listening to that nagging inner voice.
I finally found the nerve to put my needs first and, in finally letting go, I gave myself permission to define myself according to my needs and not the needs of anyone else. The strength to hang on was easy, it was my comfort zone, but finding the strength to let go made me feel eviscerated, vulnerable, and it was not something I was accustomed to.
I wanted to write this post because I have friends now in the situation in which I found myself years ago. I want them to know that letting go is not always the easy choice, but it may be the right choice, for them. It may be hard to listen to that petulant voice in your head, but that voice is the most sincerely honest advice you will ever get.
Don’t give up easily. If it is worth the fight, than fight, fight like your life depends on it. But if you know in your heart that nothing will ever change, let go, let go like your life depends on it.
I don’t think I read this one. Fine advice. And thanks for the repost.
Thanks for the comment. 🙂