“Always be a first-rate version of yourself and not a second-rate version of someone else.” ~ Judy Garland
I spent much of my youth trying to be the person everyone would like. I was never ANY version of myself because I wasted too much time being concerned with who others thought I should be instead of becoming the person I was meant to be. Eventually I was able to break the cycle of trying to please everyone. I stopped feigning interest in things I had no real passion for and focused more on me. I slowly distanced myself from the users and spent far less time crossing the Great Lakes for people who wouldn’t jump over a puddle for me.
In my wisdom and older age I have learned a few things that I really like about myself. I speak three languages – English, sarcasm and profanity – and I am fluent in all three. I love to write. I don’t just do it because I enjoy it. I write because words bleed from my brain and my head feels like it will explode if I don’t expel the stories trapped inside. And I have learned to write without needing anyone else’s opinion or approval. What flows from my brain to my fingertips is what I publish on this blog and I’m very proud of the words I have shared.
I enjoy my solitude and am happy with the company I keep, whether I am home alone or spending time with friends and family. I love to cook and it doesn’t matter if it is a table for one, I will take the time to create a dining experience and not just ‘have some food’.
(my dinner last night)
Music is a big part of my life and my playlist spans the recording alphabet from Abba to Zeppelin. I could live without television but I could never have a life without movies. I will still cross oceans for people but I am much more selective when it comes to deeming who is worthy of my epic journey before I captain the ship.
I am the person I am now because I fought to become this version of myself. I stopped letting outside voices influence my decisions and started hearing the only voice that should matter – mine. It took a while to get here but I have enjoyed the journey and am really liking the view. Thanks Judy, I like your advice very much.