I was having a conversation with a girlfriend about our first really memorable kiss (not together) and I remembered I had written this blog post last year. I love this memory from my teenage years, so, since it is Throw Back Thursday, I’m sharing it again.
He held my hand during the movie. It was sweet. When he thought nobody would notice he leaned in for a kiss. It was tentative at first, his lips slowly grazing the flesh of my cheek, but it drew my blood to the surface of my skin and I blushed in the dark. His face nuzzled my neck and he kissed the skin below my ear. The movie reel continued, scenes flashed before my eyes and the surround sound echoed throughout the theatre but I became lost in his touch and forgot the movie even existed.
I was 17 and my experience kissing boys was awkward at best. Teenage boys were a kaleidoscopic combination of raging hormones and wandering hands and I didn’t expect this night to be any different. I was well versed in a strategic line of defense when it came to thwarting enemy advances but tonight was different. There were no ill-timed gropes and no need for the tactical measures that I had been prepared to use.
I turned my face to meet him and his lips found mine. The kiss was soft with a hint of controlled yearning. His mouth moved from my lips and he kissed both of my eyelids, knowing full well I was squeezing them shut to savor the feel of his mouth on mine. He kissed the tip of my nose and, after a slight pause, our lips found each others once again. Where I had expected urgency, there was tenderness. Where I had expected roving hands on my body, there was only a gentle caress of his thumb on my hand.
I was afraid to lose myself in his kiss. I was waiting for the stampede of teenage male hormones to ruin the moment and I had braced myself for the inevitability of something so sweet turning into something so uncomfortable. But that moment never happened. His kiss was his power. He didn’t listen to the teenage voices in his head telling him to get to second base. He just seemed to feed off of the energy that was created in the intimacy of a kiss.
His other hand gently cupped my cheek and he pulled me back to his mouth. It was exhilarating. I no longer felt the need for my defenses and I let myself get utterly lost in that moment. In the maturity and wisdom of his 19 years, he got it. He understood the magic of romance and how to build a moment into a memory.
That moment from so many years ago is still etched into my memory and the power of a genuinely passionate kiss will always differentiate romance and sex. May we all love deeply and kiss intentionally.
Do you remember the first great kiss you ever had?