I’ve never been afraid of the water. But perhaps after spending five years trying to calm the waves in my marriage I have been left with the slightest hesitation about diving back in. Divorce can feel like a Tsunami, like the calm before the storm. There is a sense of peace and strange tranquility and then the rush of emotion comes like a tidal wave engulfing everything in its path. And like the Tsunami, you know that wave is coming but it’s nearly impossible to get to a safe haven.
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The dating pool, although seemingly non-threatening compared to the violent storm waves, beckons and standing on the edge of that pool is just as daunting as watching that tide surge forward. The water may seem calm on the surface but the hidden dangers lie beneath that placid sheen and the potential for another storm gives me pause. The slightest touch of the surface causes ripples and pushes me back from the edge of the pool.
I watch as the ripples dissipate. The soft blue glow seems so inviting, but the dormant threat still lurks under the veil waiting to lure me closer to the edge, waiting to gently touch my skin and pull me under when I am blissfully unaware of the current below. I can’t swim, not now. Maybe sometime soon I will remember how wonderful it felt to float in that water, how comforting it was to be surrounded by its warmth and to feel buoyant. Maybe soon, but not now.
I’m sure the water is fine, but I don’t think I’m ready yet to hold my breath and jump. For now I’m content to sit on the edge of the pool and exhaust every argument in my head as to why I shouldn’t just take the plunge.
This was written for the Trifecta Challenge:
EXHAUST (transitive verb)
1a : to consume entirely : use up <exhausted our funds in a week>
b : to tire extremely or completely <exhausted by overwork>
c : to deprive of a valuable quality or constituent <exhaust a photographic developer>
2a : to draw off or let out completely
b : to empty by drawing off the contents; specifically : to create a vacuum in
3a : to consider or discuss (a subject) thoroughly or completely
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