Puppy love

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For all intents and purposes, my dog is my child.  She has been in my life for 5 1/2 years and has completely wrapped herself in my heart-strings.  Decisions I make are based on what would be best for her and how my decisions will affect her.  Since my divorce, I have not spent a night away from her – until last night.  I went to the city for a work function and left her at home.  My neighbor graciously agreed to come and tend to her needs but it was difficult leaving her behind.

I can only imagine how a parent feels leaving their child with a babysitter for the first time.  The feeling of anxiety was overwhelming as I drove out of my driveway.  My intuition assured me she would be fine, but my guilt kept prodding at that intuition and the inner struggle was awful.

The Guest Appreciation night was a great success, but several times during the evening I felt the pang of regret knowing she was home alone.  I’m sure she slept the whole time and enjoyed having the bed to herself but I could not disregard the fleeting moments that my brain was distracted by thoughts of my furry friend.  As I write this, I find it a little odd that my connection with my puppy dog is that strong but she has been my friend and confidant through many tumultuous times and I would be lost without her.

I awoke at 6:30 this morning and, as I always do, called her name.  When my bloodshot eyes focused on my surroundings I realized that I was in a hotel two hours away and I missed her.  Had I not been giving a ride home to two of my coworkers, I would have hastily thrown on my clothes and driven home at that moment.

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All is right in my world again.  I arrived home to her welcoming smile and an exuberant greeting and we have assumed our usual positions – me on the couch with my laptop and Callaway curled in a ball at my feet.

Do your pets have the same hold on you?  Or am I slowly going crazy?

12 thoughts on “Puppy love

  1. Congratulations on your first night away from Callaway and congratulations on your understanding that dogs are much better friends and companions than most of us humans will ever be. If this be insanity, make the most of it.

  2. Daaaw. She’s beautiful.

    I recently had to fly to San Francisco for the weekend and had to leave my dog behind for the first time ever. It was so awful waking up in an empty bed. My friend who was looking after her said that around the time I normally get home from work, she started pacing in front of the door and didn’t stop for an hour or so. My dog is so much more of a part of my life than I’d care to really admit. My life revolves around her.

  3. I feel exactly the same way, Susan! Now we have the house on the block we have to leave the two dogs at ‘home’ (where we are staying) and spend the day working on the RUC. I can’t stay after sunset because I know they’ll be missing me and hungry and maybe a bit scared (because the surroundings are unfamiliar to them). So work on the RUC will take a little longer only because of them! If we go out at night to a friends house I’m constantly checking my watch, worried about how they’re coping and we usually leave early.

    I know exactly how you feel…

  4. I don’t think you’re going mad at all. I don’t have a pet at the moment (mainly because I move around so it would be very hard) but if I did I’m sure I would miss it as much as a child, partner or parent. And anybody who thinks that’s mad has probably not experienced the joy, warmth and unconditional love a pet brings into your life:)

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